How do I respond when I don't get what I want?
It's quite interesting trying to figure this answer out because often times I will eventually get what I want. With material items, I tend to make it to where I save up for what I want. I have wishlists and end up getting the items even if it takes a while.
July 26th- Josh often asks me what I want. I have noticed that this can be a simple question or a difficult one depending on my mood. In recent weeks, when I dont get what I want I can get a little grumpy, or, like last night at Irish Pub, I got much quieter, stiffer and flat out less enjoyable. I wanted to go home and I started to realize we weren't leaving yet or soon, so I sat back and felt this uncomfortable mood linger in me. It was interesting because i have been feeling all my emotions as of recent. I remember thinking last night that at one point we would be leaving, and that I would be able to sleep soon. When we left it was much nicer and my mood elevated. I did eventually get what I wanted. Something I just thought is that usually I DO end up getting what I want. One day it wont be that way and I know i get frustrated or sad. Mostly frustrated.
July 26th- Josh often asks me what I want. I have noticed that this can be a simple question or a difficult one depending on my mood. In recent weeks, when I dont get what I want I can get a little grumpy, or, like last night at Irish Pub, I got much quieter, stiffer and flat out less enjoyable. I wanted to go home and I started to realize we weren't leaving yet or soon, so I sat back and felt this uncomfortable mood linger in me. It was interesting because i have been feeling all my emotions as of recent. I remember thinking last night that at one point we would be leaving, and that I would be able to sleep soon. When we left it was much nicer and my mood elevated. I did eventually get what I wanted. Something I just thought is that usually I DO end up getting what I want. One day it wont be that way and I know i get frustrated or sad. Mostly frustrated.
How do I deal with negative people?
Do I even? As of lately I have been avoiding social situations which helps me stay away from negative people and positive people. Strange how we can define a person that way- negative or positive. As if it were black and white. Situations recently could very well have people deem me as negative... hm. I definitely noticed my change in character; however, the feelings are flooding without me being able to control them. My stomach feels weird at times as well. I do remember asking Bridget why she didnt like something or if she was angry about something when she was being incredibly negative. It almost snapped her back into the "now" and made her realize that she was indeed being negative. I guess it's tough, no one wants to be told theyre negative...
How much self-control do I have with things that I know are bad for me, but tend to indulge in?
I HAVE NO SELF-CONTROL. I need to make the change. Eating when I shouldnt is a major problem I deal horribly with. Saving money. Budgeting and staying within the budget. OKAY, here it is, deciding on having self-control!
July 26th- Ah self-control. Still haven't found a balance to that; however, I have practiced intermittent fasting for some time and enjoy it a lot. I am wanting to cook more 'pioneer food' if not with Josh so that I can save money like I did back in April. Sex is an indulgence Josh and I are really enjoying. From the get go I have seen a more responsible approach to our intimacy, yet this morning after telling me no he pulled my leggings off and yeah. It was phenomenal. An indulgence I have been enjoying is finishing in a different way than I am used too. There was a night where I was on the yoga mat and Josh was down-under. Slowly and sultry he was asking me questions about masterbation and sex and when I cum. The conversation was an eye-opener; he brought up the fact that if i tell myself I wont cum then I won't. If i try then I possibly can. And that if I have a specific way of finishing it will mostly only happen that way. So from that conversation on- which I still think about- I have finished when the senses were heightened enough. Sometimes I have sex just to have sex and holy crap, it is incredibly liberating. I enjoy those experiences as much as I enjoy sex when I do finish.That talk was a fantastic way to think about sex in general, finishing and completely enjoying the intimate moment with Josh. Plus, i'm not just over-indulging by finishing. Wow, I just realized I totally need another post entirely to our intimacy because we use our eyes a lot during sex. It leaves us speechless.
July 26th- Ah self-control. Still haven't found a balance to that; however, I have practiced intermittent fasting for some time and enjoy it a lot. I am wanting to cook more 'pioneer food' if not with Josh so that I can save money like I did back in April. Sex is an indulgence Josh and I are really enjoying. From the get go I have seen a more responsible approach to our intimacy, yet this morning after telling me no he pulled my leggings off and yeah. It was phenomenal. An indulgence I have been enjoying is finishing in a different way than I am used too. There was a night where I was on the yoga mat and Josh was down-under. Slowly and sultry he was asking me questions about masterbation and sex and when I cum. The conversation was an eye-opener; he brought up the fact that if i tell myself I wont cum then I won't. If i try then I possibly can. And that if I have a specific way of finishing it will mostly only happen that way. So from that conversation on- which I still think about- I have finished when the senses were heightened enough. Sometimes I have sex just to have sex and holy crap, it is incredibly liberating. I enjoy those experiences as much as I enjoy sex when I do finish.That talk was a fantastic way to think about sex in general, finishing and completely enjoying the intimate moment with Josh. Plus, i'm not just over-indulging by finishing. Wow, I just realized I totally need another post entirely to our intimacy because we use our eyes a lot during sex. It leaves us speechless.
How do I deal with inconvenient life situations?
Inconvenient situations throw me off a lot of the times, yet I usually find that it wasn't inconvenient at all. Timing is everything. Sometimes timing just works in an 'inconvenient' way.
